I thought I could have it all, but now …
September 7, 2012
Hi again, Friend,
Last week I shared that cha-cha-change is coming. If you missed it, you can review all the juicy details here. In short, after much consideration I’ve decided to fold all my existing web worlds into one new site, KrisCarr.com — launching on September 17th!
This week I want to go deeper into the “why.” It started a month or so after the majority of my new year’s resolutions flopped. To say they were lofty is a gross (and sticky) understatement. I basically put a superhuman shifting schedule on my 2012 agenda. But there was one idea that stuck with me and interestingly, it became my guiding light. “What energetic through line or emotional thread do you want to feel throughout the year?” The answer came months later. Here it is: calm.
I used to believe I could have it all. I just couldn’t have it all at once. I don’t want to believe that anymore, because I now feel like “all” is just too much (for me). Spaciousness is far more nourishing than “all.” Spaciousness is my soul’s currency. It’s the place where all art is born. “All” is cumbersome.
Lately I’ve been daydreaming a lot. I daydream while I hike my mountains. I daydream in the car, train or plane. I daydream in my journal. I cut out images and post them on my life board: a hybrid between an art director’s style board and a spiritual seeker’s vision board. When I take a few steps back and squint at the words and pictures on the board, they ignite a visceral response in me.
Here’s what I see: work smarter not harder, relish emptiness, be quiet then play, hunt for treasures (especially at flea markets), cook, connect, nurture your home, embrace the introversion/extroversion balance, relax, trust authenticity, let graciousness and gratitude lead the way, know there is safety in vulnerability and only create what you want to create on your own terms. Oh, and don’t be afraid of color, especially paint color, and–dare I say–wallpaper.
So as you can see, the “why” behind powering down Crazysexylife.com is intricately connected to the energy I desire for my own life.
Now to you: Are there any seemingly difficult changes in your near future? Has a project or relationship run its course – even if it’s still fertile and bright? Do share.
Or perhaps you’d rather share this: How do you want to feel in the next five years? Does your life board match your current work/life load? If not, what’s one step you could take to slowly, gently, graciously recalibrate?
Peace & alignment,