Living Positively with HIV

By Guest Blogger   |  4Comments|

I was fresh out of high school with top grades, enjoying a year off before starting at a top university, living life like any other middle-class 18 year old.

“Do you know why you’re here?“ the doctor asked.

“No,” I answered meekly, knowing it must be something bad, as I was called in especially.

“You have HIV.” Silence.

“How long do I have?”

“Five years, give or take, medications, reduced quality of life, life expectancy is not much higher.”’

I was alone, on the other side of the world without any friends or family. I was a healthy 18-year -old. I was not promiscuous. I was not wild. I was just “average.” I flew home and told my father that I was no longer going to university. I was going to travel the world for five years and he was going to pay for it. ”If you’re going to die, die intelligent,” was his reply — one that I am eternally grateful for. I was healthy, with my whole life in front of me. I was invincible just like every other 18-year-old.

Luckily for me, positive thinking and positive action turned what could have been a life sentence into a damn good excuse to start living, and to start living like I meant it! 17 years later, I am experiencing greater health, fulfillment and love than I ever imagined.

After years of struggling my way through an unhappy marriage with a man who was a drug addict and alcoholic while I studied full-time at university and worked five days a week to pay for our mortgage, a failing immune system, emotional eating issues, several attacks of shingles, kidney stones, further unhappy relationships, jobs that I didn’t like, insecurity and lack of confidence, the will for greater health and happiness crept in. Little by little it shone through the cracks to totally turn my life around and allow me to develop into who I am today. Today I am one of the happiest people I know.

No matter what life throws at us, we have a choice. We have a choice every day to turn our thoughts and actions around, step by step, by choosing foods, jobs, friends and thoughts that nourish and support us. It isn’t easy. But is it possible. Always.

For me, these choices led me to: eating a plant-based, fresh, clean diet that fills me with energy and health; practicing spiritual work daily that helps me to connect with the world around me and see deeper connections than  just what is happening in my life; taking more responsibility to seek out a job I love and people who uplift me; and sharing my life with the most amazing man I have ever met.

My greatest wish is that I would be able to share my identity, who I am, so that I can reach more people and inspire them to create their own positive change.  The future still holds that day, and I keep it close to my heart.

May you have strength to face challenges. May you find the people who can help you along the way. May you recognize your own shining light and share it with the world.

Special thanks to our guest blogger today who has chosen to share their story anonymously.

Photo credit: Tracy Rosen

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4 responses to Living Positively with HIV
  1. Very inspiring to think that no matter what life throws at us there are no excuses to not live a life of purpose and to take care of ourselves. We always have a choice to live life to the fullest no matter what our circumstances.
    Wishing you lots of love and good health for years to come :)

  2. An inspiring story ……

    ‘guest blogger’, if you are interested in getting the HIV out of your system, you might seriously check out using MMS (sodium chlorite) … there have been to date over 300 “cures” (yes, I have used to word cures.

    Here is a list of the protocols, and the person that developed it:


    This is the real thing (i’ve taken it) and no, I do not sell the stuff. The FDA is doing everything in their power to stifle this product ($20 for a years supply)

    all the best to you,


  3. “It isn’t easy. But is it possible. Always.” I love it. Thanks for sharing your story.

  4. Love your courage. I could have read pages, not Paragraphs :). Have you thought of sending your story to magazines? I bet you could write a longer, more in-depth article and have an attorney submit it on your behalf to maintain anonymity. It is a message of life and encouragement and hope that is resting partly in the shade…I wish your story and spirit full sunshine to encourage so many who have never heard ur story! I think I hv a friend who has HIV tho they hv never said so…I have imagined the hesitancy of sharing must be a significant concern. So glad to hear you have the love of a fantastic man! I’m sure that’s a great measure of healing all on its own! Thank you for this post!!!