How do you stay so positive lady?
Hello Crazy Sexy Goddess and Gods (thanks Amy!)..
So I’ve been getting this question a lot from reporters, bloggers and even my mail man. Let’s dish it!
I wrote in my book that survivor isn’t a term, it’s an attitude. Survivors are like tea bags, ya never know how strong we are till you dip us in hot water. Right?!? I still have cancer but the day I started to call myself a survivor my whole perception shifted. As women and men with cancer we live every day with a mind bending weight on our shoulders. We tiptoe on the razor-edge of mortality, one hand touching the heavens, the other grabbing the earth. We juggle dying with living while paying the bills, doing the grocery shopping, picking up the kids, changing the oil, fixing that damn leaky pipe. Are we not “surviving” while managing the demands of a busy life? The planet doesn’t stop and wait for us to get well, so why should we? And why should anyone define us as anything other than the dynamic hot tomatoes that we are?
I’m a winner now, not when this dark stigma thing is over. I can’t put my life on hold because of cancer. To do that would waste my time and energy. Plus, I wouldn’t give cancer that kind of power. I have a lot of things to do! Ultimately it just takes more energy for me to be negative. Life is a terminal condition, cancer patients are just more aware of it. As someone with a chronic disease, if I spend my precious days in anger and outrage I’ll miss the good stuff, the cake, cartwheels and the sunshine.
For me, it’s just easier to stay in the light, to stay positive. Negativity is exhausting and brings my entire vibration down. Now that said, I am a human being and some days are tough, tough, tough. When they are, sit with them, feel them, let them soak in and then maybe, just maybe, try to find the giggle. Isn’t it all just so silly sometimes. Cancer is a strong wind and if yoga teaches me anything, it teaches me to sway with it. Some days you want to push the river but perhaps in those moments you can wake up to the force of it, grab your golden inner tube and float baby float.
Remember this too, your only true belongings are your actions. Today (8/15/07) my action is to choose to find the good, the uplifting and the love. It’s all around me. My cat just came over for a little scratch and pat. Ahhh, a sign!
No one is more powerful than you. Not even that silly little “c” – canSer. Remember to spell it wrong just to piss it off.
Peace veggies and a heck of a lot O’ love to each of you,
aka Cancer Cowgirl