Crazy Sexy WHAT?
My mom always said I liked to stir the pot with a glittering spoon and wow, was she right! Ever since the TLC ad started running I’ve been getting oceans of letters of thanks, praise, big love, and “who the hell do you think you are!?” Huh? I wasn’t ready for that. Once I saw the commercial I got it. I love TLC, but quite simply the commercial does not represent the film. If you want to know what all this crazy sexy chat is about, read our site and watch our trailer. Some of ya’ll think it’s a reality show! NO. But if it was, how do I get voted off the Island?
The title was meant to kick cancer in its place, NOT to glorify it. Tragically, cancer is sometimes a part of life and too many people give it more power than the nasty thing deserves. Cancer is a BIG part of my life; it is a chronic disease that I may have to live with forever. Cancer ISN’T sexy, the soulful women who have it ARE. We are warriors, angels, vibrant hot tomatoes and cancer cannot take that away from us. Cancer cowgirls are empowered, whole thrivers with or without the disease. I refuse to let cancer break my spirit, victimize me, or make me feel like a sick person – so I CHOOSE to believe that I am more alive, beautiful, and yes, sexier (AKA empowered, passionate, and intriguing) than ever before! Why not?
A little back-story for you: Crazy Sexy Cancer was originally the subject heading for the mass email updates I would write to my friends and family. I wanted them to know that just because something really scary and dark had changed my life, I hadn’t changed. I still had my sense of humor, I was still willing to poke fun at things (especially stigmas), to challenge perceptions and flip the script. I wasn’t going to amputate parts of myself to fit into the new (and tiny) cancer box.
I don’t look at my journey as if it is a battle (partly because I hope I don’t lose), so instead I call it my cancer adventure story. It is a documentary film about how I coped with cancer. Since there is no cure and no treatment for my disease, I live with it every day. By calling it crazy sexy cancer I demystify it and redefine it for myself. It makes me feel a little lighter and a lot stronger – NOT shackled and shelved like damaged goods.
Cancer is still something people whisper about and feel shamed by. I understand feeling angry and powerless in the wake of this disease all too well. But aren’t we all so tired of swallowing the pain, suffering, and words we dare not say? Who doesn’t feel like roaring? Crazy SEXY cancer makes me feel liberated. I hope it does for you too. Sexy doesn’t come from a black dress, perfect size 6, great boobs, etc. Sexy women are confident and powerful gals who speak their truth. Sexy isn’t sinful and nasty; it’s electric and loving. What do you beautiful (oops, is that a bad word too….he he he) divine gals think?
Peace and love and so much glitter!